trying to keep myself busy all these days to avoid thinking about things.this holiday i hope i can enjoy it.well i hope so.but it'll be one tiring holiday.so many things happen.and its damn fustrating.i wonder how long can i stand this kind of pressure given.how should i relieve myself.i'm lost.or maybe because i'm not me anymorehaix i hope my tiring days will be over and i'll be happy again.i want to be.